revisit

   So it's been almost a year since I have posted anything on my blog, and since I have been so  preoccupied with thoughts of why I can't seem to get it together, I thought I would get back to basics and pour out my guts. I think a lot about when I first started the Bridging the Wellness Gap program and how motivated I was to get healthy, lose weight, get balanced, etc....I did have success, I felt better physically, mentally I felt like I could really keep this lifestyle up no problem. Fast forward 11 months laterand here I am in the same place that I was when I started. Feeling like crap, physically, mentally and sporting a muffin top. I can't help but ask why I do this time and time again. Start eating healthy, losing a little weight, feeling better, and BOOM! sabatage myself right back to my old ways. I can't really blame anyone but me, sure I could say life gets in the way, or that I don't care. Obviously I care or I would not be sitting here writing this post :) As far as the excuse that life gets in the way...It does there is no denying that but I guess it is a matter of how I handle life getting in the way that counts the most. I have not been holding myself accountable for myself. I often think why is that so hard? I wish I knew the answer to that question?????? Anyway so I have decided that I have to come up with a plan to get back in the swing and make myself a healthier person. Because I am worth it

    So here is the plan......I am only going to eat whole foods. That means no processed meals, no burger king, no mcdonalds and no pizza hut.(you get the idea)
I am going to make it a point to move everyday, even if it is just a walk.
I am going to be mindful of my actions.
I will meditate at least 3 times a week
I will pray to God daily
I will have an attitude of gratitude.

So stay tuned and see what happens, I am also going to try and keep blogging.....I think it helps to spill your guts from time to time :)


So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. Corinthians 10:31


Till next time
Peace Out!

Its a Process

After the BTWG meeting I was kind of thinking how my thought process has changed from when the program began until now. I will have to say in the beginning I was gung ho and my focus was really weight loss. As I reflect now I have to say my focus has changed a bit. Now I am thinking about my total wellness and not so much what the scale says. I have to say that I really don't care what the scale says anymore. Because when you achieve balance the rest is a cake walk...Alright so a cake with no sugar walk :) So then I started to think what it really meant to "be balanced" And my thoughts are....Ok so I am not perfect but I am working everyday on becoming a better person, and having more balance will make me a better Mom, daughter , sister, friend. For me to be balanced is saying that I am OK with living as a single woman because I can finally say I like me. Being balanced is stopping and taking in 10 deep cleansing breaths when you are ready to blow a gasket, or sitting quietly in prayer for 10 minutes a day and talking to God or just sitting with no thoughts at all. It is getting out of the house and doing 30 60 minutes of exercise a day because it makes me feel better physically and mentally. It is eating foods that are good fuel for my body so I can be healthy, and continue to do all the things I still have left to do in this life. Being balanced is not sweating the small stuff because at the end of the day that's all it really is.....small stuff. As I reflect this program is much more to me than just weight loss or the number of pounds I have hoped to shed. I am so grateful for my BTWG community, and the people that work out at PR Fitness because I have never in my life met a more caring, genuine group of people ever and for that I am eternally grateful! Isn't it funny how God can strategically place us exactly where we need to be?

Good Day and a recipe

So today has been a good day. I didn't work Monday night so I got plenty of sleep before I had to work tonight. I even managed to go for a run in the afternoon before work. I took big dog along with me because she gained 20lbs over the winter! Shocking! She doesn't seem to mind though :) We both did real well on the run. Intervals Gotta love em! I tried a new recipe last night that was good Cabbage noodles and sausage
 1 lb italian sausage
1/2 head of cabbage slice thinly
1 red onion
caraway seeds
paprika
salt and cracked pepper
Cook the meat in a skillet until done and then place the meat in a bowl. In the same skillet that the meat was in, cook the onion until translucent. Add the cabbage and cook for about 8-10 min, until soft. Add spices I didnt really measure them just add to your taste. mix the meat baci in to the cabbage mixture and serve.
 I also fried apples and raisins in some coconut oil and served them as a side.
This whole meal only took about 30 min start to finish. Very yummy

Back in the Saddle

So I have been sick with upper respiratory stuff for a week and a half. Have not really been paying too much attention to food, exercise, erc.Just when I start to feel somewhat better....I start feeling like crap again! It is so hard to be sick when you are NEVER sick! I woke up this morning and feel a bit better so fingers crossed maybe I will get some activity in today. Something is better than nothing for sure! I read Chris's post and that made me feel a lot better....WHAT INSIGHT!!!!!! I have also thought about how much worse being sick could have been if I haven't been eating right or exercising or taking care of myself. It is a constant reminder that this program is really not about weight loss, which sometimes I focus way too much on. I hope all of you have a good rest of the week See you on Sat

What a week

This week has been like hell week and I am not quite sure why. I am feeling like the more I try to be balanced.....The more unbalanced I am( If I could get anymore unbalanced) I feel so uneasy...I think 50%may be hormonal because I have cried all week and don't really know why????? What the F! I keep thinking of all these things that I really haven't thought about in years and it is really pissing me off because I know that a pint of Ben and Jerrys might be helpful...But I will continue to fight the urge :( I have realized that I very well may be my own sabatour(sp) I know as bad as I have wanted to give up this week I am not giving up....I won't quit....I guess I just didn't realize that I am such a psych case :) Thanks for letting me vent. See everyone on Saturday

I think I fried my lungs

Ok so today after reading the tip of the day I decided to do my interval training.........outside.......YES OUTSIDE. I llayered up and started with a slow pace, not so bad, but I got about 15 minutes in and I thought my lungs were on fire. and I was thinking not the best idea I ever had. But I did finish with joy in my heart...and fire in my lungs, and boogers in my nose(as my son so nicely pointed out as I came in the door) I came to work tonight and it looks like I might have to stay at the hospital because of call ins and the snow storm...That sucks because I an going to have to forage for somewhat healthy food....Which is a joke because the main staple in the cafeteria is grilled cheese( I forgot my lunch bag at home) You would think there woukl be more healthy choices in a hospital cafeteria, unless they are trying to drum up some business? :)

week 2 down

Hope everyone had a good week I am going to miss the meeting tomarrow (I have to Work) BOO! See everyone next week.

Week one down

So 1 week complete. I can only hope this next week is as good as week one. I went to get groceries after the meeting yesterday and cooked this weeks food and packaged it up and it is just waiting for me to eat. I did this last week too and it worked out really well. I decided that I would try some pumpkin cookies that I found a recipe for....No sugar you use maple syrup to sweeten them and almond flour instead of all purpose flour.......I think I am going to have to say they would be a trigger food because this morning they are GONE!! Any way they were real good and I have to say I don't feel as bad as if I were to eat a whole box of oreos :) I hope everyone has a GREAT week

First week almost over

I can't believe that my week has gone so well....I shouldn't probably say "I can't believe" but it has been a good week. Just kind of getting in the swing of things and feeling like This is do-able.Trust the process right? I have meditated twice this week and I thought that this was going to be my biggest strugle, but  Ifound it was actually quite nice. I don't have a lot of space in my house that is not open so I just sat in front of my sink. I was  able to really concentrate for 5min 38 sec. but hey it is a start. I wanted to pass along a website that I LOVE it is everydaypaleo.com. There are recipes that are family friendly and the ingredients are all on the food list. I use it a lot for recipes and the recipes are FABULOUS! The one down fall is that the calorie info is not on there but I just look up each ingredient and get as close as I can to the calorie amount. Can't wait to see you all on saturday

Official Start

OK so we made it through the first day...My day went well I feel like I am on track things seem like they are off to a good start. I keep thinking that I hope all is still well 7 weeks down the road. Sometimes I seem to start strong and then kind of run out of steam midway through.....So ny thought is one day at a time. Hope everyone else had a good first day!

Cold Feet

I have to say that I almost got cold feet about even starting this program....Which REALLY surprised me. I have really been looking forward to doing this for months and 2 days before the fitness testing I start FREAKING OUT! I think what if I blow it...what if I can't follow through and do this.....Or worse yet what if I fail? After much thought and chatting with my BFF I realized that this is my M.O. This is what I do.....So now what to do? I decided to put my big girl pants on and COMMIT. Not just a little .....A LOT. I am going to trust the process...Trust the Coach ( does this sound familiar Chris?) And pray that things will fall in to place and I  CHANGE. Not just because it is a new year....Because this is exactly what I need to do. Not for anyone else .FOR ME....Why? BECAUSE I CAN!

Love your neighbor as you would love yourself

I heard that commandment yesterday and it got me thinking......Why is it so easy to love everyone else but sometimes it is so hard to love ourself? Especially as women we have so many to take care of and we put ourselves on the back burner. We are so busy taking care of everyone elses needs that ours are forgotten. I say it's time to start thinking more about ourselves. To even start loving ourselves. Because when you love yourself everything else seems to fall in to place. My excuse to avoid self care is that I don't have time, when really when you think about it , there are 24 hours in a day so 1 hour out of that to exercise or take a walk is like nothing. My kids always say (lovingly of course) If Momma aint happy nobody's happy. I think it is safe to say that is absolutely the truth!